Change Me (01/07/2026)

I wasn’t expecting the thump this morning, I was bringing in the day as always on my porch with a cup of coffee and a conversation with the LORD. I was mentioning all the things I hoped the LORD would change in my life and in the lives of my family and friends. My list was quite long and detailed. And then the thump. One minute I didn’t realize it, then thump, and then I realized it. The change I needed to pray for most sincerely was in myself.

I’m guilty of it, for sure, seeing all that isn’t right, focusing on it as I look out rather than looking in on what changing me would bring. I think 2026 might be the year of conversion for me. This morning, the LORD helped me to recognize how much about me needs to change. And this morning, I admitted out loud, “I’m not a done muffin, LORD.”

There’s been something going on inside of me lately, an unease, an unrest, a sense of need or craving but unsure of what it was. This morning, as I rambled through my prayers, I realized that praying for others is a must, but I am fooling myself thinking it is only others who need help. It is not only foolish; it is arrogant. So, this morning, I humbly and gratefully thanked the LORD for the thump, I implored the LORD to lead me to the me He was calling me to be and the grace to cooperate.

I have it on good authority, from teachers in my past, that often the hardest one to see clearly is myself. I can observe the world and make detailed lists of how each would be better with specific changes but be totally unaware of the glaring changes that I myself need to make. A near sighted man on a galloping horse could easily tell me that I was imperfect. But I will be slow to recognize it and maybe even slower to open myself to the change needed.

And so, this morning, I turned my prayer to my Savior and Shepherd. “I have strayed from You and your will for me. I am truly sorry. I am lost. Find me. Lead me. Illuminate my mind, tenderize my heart, and transform my being as only You can.”   

As we make our journeys of faith, hope and love, let us remember to not only look outward for what we can do but inward to who we can be if we are willing to surrender to Him in whom we live and move and have our being.

Until tomorrow, let us all love well.