Trust Issues (12/07/2024)

This morning, as I woke up with a much needed cup of coffee in the presence of my LORD on the porch at 4 a.m., I humbly asked for forgiveness for those moments over the past week when I worried as if today’s Cookie Walk was all about me. Heaven truly knows it is not. And I gave thanks to the LORD in advance of the final sale tally because the purpose of the Cookie Walk has already been realized. This morning, I admitted to the LORD that sometimes I can act like it all depends on when we both know that nothing is farther from the truth. I also admitted that I still struggle with trust issues, but the LORD already knew that.

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I can get ahead of my skis. I do the necessary work, but somewhere along the track, I forget that I’m part of a team. Big mistake. And when I do that, I begin to act as if it is my race. It isn’t really.

Yesterday, as we began the final prep for Cookie Walk, we opened the parish center to take cookie and candy donations. The early response was not what I had hoped for. But we were getting donations and we did have wonderful volunteers working together and building community as they did. The co-chair came in to relieve me for a spell. As I left, I fretted to myself about the lack of cookie trays on the tables. When I returned after a break, the tables were full of cookie trays. The donations had arrived, just not on “my schedule.” And the volunteers were having a good time visiting and getting to know one another better.

The Cookie Walk for our Council of Catholic Women is our only fund raiser, but it’s much more than that. It is a community builder not just among our volunteers but also with our broader community. It is also an act of service, providing affordable cookies for the season to families through the generous and loving service of our members. Last night as I stood and looked over the hall, all set for this morning’s sale, I realized the LORD has done what the LORD always does, work through others through the power of the Spirit.

I am learning. The learning curve is steep. I probably still will have trust issues in the future, truly giving it to the LORD who gifts us and guides us to work together in His service and for the good of one another. I am a work in progress, but the LORD reminded me today what can happen if I truly turn things over to His will and love.

Thank you, LORD!

Until tomorrow, let us all love well.